Happy Thanksgiving, Here's A Poem for Home

Lisa Ann Markuson aka LAMARKS aka me

Lisa Ann Markuson aka LAMARKS aka me

On November 15th I attended a The Collective’s conference, Be More Together, hosted at The Collective Paper Factory. They asked me to collect insights throughout the day on the theme of the conference: Home.

As we speed toward the end of this decade, the concept of home seems to be called into question more and more. Where do we belong? How can we live more sustainably? Why are we so lonely, even as cities become more and more crowded? Through a series of performances, conversations, discussions, and hands-on workshops with The Collective, I got to ask myself these and much more specific questions and learn about the evolution of elements I have taken for granted in our living environments. Two examples: toilets used to be very unhygienic circular holes before our modern oval shape was invented, and historic architecture had no such thing as hallways, the rooms were enfilade, aka room-to-room. But I digress.

At the end of the day, I sat down to contemplate my notes and assemble them into a poem to perform for the hundred or so attendees. And I was struck with this:

I was searching in between 

the cracks in the concrete

Looking for a future self

I wouldn’t be ashamed to meet


I found myself wondering 

how to define a home

Are we meant to live in 

3,000 square feet yet all alone?


Do I really need to own 

my own big TV screen?

Or, in rarer cases, my own 

giant trampoline? 

(ok that would be cool but)


Do our aging parents 

really want to relegate 

Themselves to a golf course chalet 

behind an iron gate?


So I went on a journey -

A working holiday of sorts.

But I got lost along the way -

No compass rose, no starry north.


I came upon a hidden house 

with a wide open door, 

just when I had started to fear 

I could walk no more.


Greeted by transcendent souls 

within a quiet storm,

I became an ant, a fish, a bird -

Making sounds without a word.


I tiptoed in curiously, 

warmed my hands upon the hearth.

Savored scents of cooking 

from an oven made of earth.


In the bathroom I relieved 

myself upon an oval throne --

Rinsed myself from graceful faucets 

with the most minimalist flows


Suddenly a crowd of friends 

had filled up the fine dwelling.

I had never met them 

but my lonely heart was swelling.


A feast ensued, my fears subdued

A bounty fit for queens and kings

-and the best part of it was

it was a spontaneous gathering.


Humans do need time alone

and our own privacy.

But even more do we require 

trust and love and intimacy.


And as I fall asleep tonight

smiling at all we’ve won:


Undone alienation

Thoughtful co-creation

Cozy hibernation

Flexible foundations

Felt ourselves a new sensation…


I may not have the answer yet

but know I’m not alone

in redefining, seeking, building

what it means to find a home.


I hope you have a wonderful holiday week if you’re in the States, and if not, a great normal week.

And it’s not too late to book me or another poet for your HOLIDAY PARTY!

la + sarah at Central Park Zoo.JPG
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